还有1个礼拜多4月就快要结束了。。
而我在这个月里。。
我做了什么事呢?
好事坏事？
拍拖〉见面〉冷谈〉复合〉冷谈〉结束。。
就酱。。
一段感情已结束。。
每个人都觉得我和他在一起很幸福。。
但是。。。
就是相反。。
我一点也不觉得幸福。。
反而是辛苦，
开始时，
很甜蜜。。
但见面后。。
他对我好冷淡。。
感觉他变了另一个人似的。。
不是我认识他。。
更赌兰的是。。。。
“我一向来都是这样，是你他还说不懂而已”。。
我承认我是很不了解他。。
认识一个礼拜就在一起。。
在一起的第20天后。。
就没在联络了。。
已经4 天了。。
这样的关系要维持几久才会结束呢。。。。
2009年4月23日星期四
2009年4月2日星期四
我今天。。又哭了。。
我今天。。哭了，哭得好累。。。很想不哭，但是眼泪一只往下掉。。。停不了，很多人一直安慰，但越安慰，我是哭。。本来已经不哭了的。。可是一问。。我有哭了。。其实我知道我顶老师是不对。。。可是，就。。。。很想跟她说对不起。。可是，就，真的。。很。。我不懂啊。。我好乱好乱。。好烦好烦。。不想再去想。。可是。。我真的好累了。。不过老师讲的也没错。。社会上就是会有酱的问题。。难道我就一直要为了这些小事一只哭吗？
好烦。爱哭包。。我真的是个爱哭包。。一点点小事就哭。。我真的好没用哦。。我只是一个傻瓜，为你们把眼泪光。。心碎了还是假装自己很坚强，我笑得好傻。。因为在掩饰哀伤。。痛得是后才真的看见绝望。。
好烦。爱哭包。。我真的是个爱哭包。。一点点小事就哭。。我真的好没用哦。。我只是一个傻瓜，为你们把眼泪光。。心碎了还是假装自己很坚强，我笑得好傻。。因为在掩饰哀伤。。痛得是后才真的看见绝望。。
2009年2月19日星期四
今天的心情好累哦~
我的心情好累哦~我觉得我没有能力做4b的班长~我的感觉好累~太多事要忙了~我的忘记累是什么感觉?直到我静静的扒在桌子我才感到累~周围的吵闹声。。另我觉得我自己好没用。。连叫他们安静的能力也没有。。我也不懂那天我为什么会在班哭，但哭了出来~我舒服多了，感觉到压力消失。。也或许我对那些人，觉得很失望吧！！！我很想把我的班可以布置到美美。。把班打扫干净。。那感觉是多么的有满足感，但是。。为什么，他们就不能合作一点呢？为何要把它弄肮脏才甘愿呢？你们真的能忍受在那呢肮脏的环境上课吗？你有没有问自己。。如果你换成是我，你会不会觉得失望？当你很认真，很用心的去完成一件事的时候是什么感觉？而给人破坏你的心血又是什么感受？你们有没有为我想过？我做么努力到时是为了什么？我不是为了我自己。。我是为了不想让人家看扁我们班。。读书不厉害不用紧，但最重要是不要让别人看扁。。为什么你们就是要看不起自己，其实每个人都有自己厉害的地方，有跟别人不同的才华。。为什么不把它发挥出来呢？世界上没有每有用的人，只有懒惰的人。。我也知道，只要肯努力，就会有成功的一天。。。我真的很希望我们班会是老师会认为的“好班”，不管在什么方面。。我是真心的希望每个人都没改变，包括我在内。。。希望可以和你们一起努力达到我们的目标好不好？我也会尽我的能力去做好它的~
加油吧！！！！4b 班的！！！你们是可以做到的！！！！
至于。。下午班 ，我好希望和你们说，，，
也希望你们能给与我们合作。。。
请不要再破坏我所付出的心血好吗？
也请你们保持班上的清洁好吗？
加油吧！！！！4b 班的！！！你们是可以做到的！！！！
至于。。下午班 ，我好希望和你们说，，，
也希望你们能给与我们合作。。。
请不要再破坏我所付出的心血好吗？
也请你们保持班上的清洁好吗？
2009年2月11日星期三
NICE MEMORY~
07/02/09
也许我不是最关心你的妹妹，
或许我还不够了解你，但，无论你孤单，伤心，想哭，想笑时。。我都会一直在这里默默的守候你，从做你妹妹那天起，永不变~
08/02/09
hahas..so touching ar
moring~gor~ofcos is me type t ma
hahas..okok..yesterday i fal slp le..
haha~yesterday i oso slp jor~the massage is 2day send 2 u t~wad gor doing
jus eat le finish norh..thn later go jusco buy thing wif family..hahas
so gud lo~i hv atviti cant go out 2 ply a..T.T
today wor?today got activity at home t mie?
cos i hv bersatuan lo~
Oicic..thn u busy mar?
sori ya~late reply ~just nw i hv band~no la~at my church da~is that 1 boys briged is malaysia~hv many company t~
Oicici..thn free ady ar?
no la~then band end jor
ya lo~then u le~no shopping nw o~
hahas..yea yea
ya lo ~oso free chat wif me a~
hahas..wont la..okok norh..jus pui family lor
wif family go out will sien ma?
Hahas..no la..i got time free thn pui family lor..hahas
thas gud lo~i 1 pui my family oso cant~
why de?
i baba no wt at home~
hahas..seldom bak home izzit?
yaya~u shop end jor ma?
bak home jor lu..now on9..hahas
haiz~then no time chat wif me jor lo~
no la..only late reply..hahas
u off jor ma~
i jus off de lo..u got on mie
no o~my sis use compurter~u gor is use 016 or 014 ?
both also got..but 016 no use ady le
ya o..cos he just nw use 014 d find me..n i hv 2 gor oso call daric..
yea mie?tis name is made by my bro de wor..
dono o.then name same same t..u eat jor dinne ma?
haven o..hahas very hungry now
u mami no cook o...
hv ar~but go ppl house eat..
so cute t..u mun hv cook..but go ppl home eat???:s/..
yea la..coz fren's baby 1 month birthday mar..hahas
o~icici,hehe,2day so hapi can wif u sms lo~
hahas,why so hapi?
cos u sms me lo^^
Oicic..hahas is ok de?
hehe~i think no need send abut love t massege 2 me la~me will sad t le~
hun?why de?
cos me dont hv bf lo~c t massage i will sad t~
Oicic..dun think too much la..XD
haiz..me lik jor 1 boy 3 year a~is 3 year a~haiz
thn the boy dun like u mar?
i dono hw he think~
Oicic..form wat de?
same wif me t~
Oiic..very leng zai de ar
leng zaidono o~some ppl say he leng zai~some ppl say he not
Hahas..u show me see leng zai or not
(picta)leng zai ma?
okok norh..hahas not bad la..gambateh a mui
but gor more leng zai...haha..i think wif he do best fren bete do bf gf
hahas..where got leng zai..ge more leng zai la..XD but u gambateh la..if reli cant u try to giv up ok,?dun make ur self sam fu
hehe..i nw gv out le lo~then he tell he mui say i no lik him anymore jor~n say no ppl aways tk care him,chat xin shi wif he..hen bu xi guan..
but u hv to jian qiang la know?dun think too much and hurt ur selr..try to be hapi
erm..i look lik sad o??ya..he b4 is so hurt me..but nw..i dont care he how 2 think me,i very hapi..cos i noe nw i hv many ppl care t~just lik u..so i nw no need bcoz he sad n cry..tq u gor
09/02/09
sore ya..yesterday nite fal slp ady..hahas..sms me when u wakeup o:-)
wa~wake up so erly a~nw working a?
hahas..jus now meeting now ok le lu..rest alwhile
haha~then hai xi guan t work ma?
ok lo..b4 got work mor..but 1 week only la
y do 1 week oli t~
tis is fair lai de..so jus work 1week only..
oicic..u wt time eat arternon
now rest alwhile lo..thn afternoon rest again lu.
waa~hv so many rest time ya~this work no bad o.~haha~me so cham lo~go out sing k~but no mic gv me sing~
Got sing k stil cham ar?hahas me more cham lo
go there sit oli~gv my gor n mui chong jor~y cham le?
hahas..u didit say also..u cal them giv u mar..
haiz~shuan le ba~all is them say~them no gv me d la~
thn why u go?didt sing also..them bully u de..
ya la~who call them xiong that me
hahas..u should xiong thn them mar..thn so small..hahas
haha~nvmy la~nw them go out tk thing eat..nw i can sing~hapi
hahas..today hapi ar?
some some hapi lo~u le ?
work where got hapi de la..Hahas
haha~hapi then gud lo~u gor on9 nw le~
hahas..he so free de la..no nie work also de..
y he no work t
coz he tomorow jus work lu
0~do same work a~
yea yea..jus now ask ady lu..my bro can work here hahas
haha~then u hapi lo~hv ppl pui u~
hahas..ok..ok la ..hahas
erm.okok..hahas thx u anywhere
gor，nw i no hapi?
why ar?wt appen
my mun be4 say 2moro say 1 facht me go out t,then just nw she fen call my mun facht her nu er go out..the time is same wif me 1 go out t..then she ask me find ppl facth o~coz she 1 facth her fren nu er go out..then 1 very engry n go back 2 room cry,,then she come 2 my room ma me lo~she say her t nu er inpoten that me..
10/02/09
gor~morning a~2 day work must add oil a~n always smile ~add oil~muack..^^
hahas..thx alot ya..u also gambateh aya..jayou!hahas
hahas..now i break jor lu
i bak home liao lur
gor..sori a~just nw i m slping~so no reply u a~u nw eat jor dinner ma~
no la..jus wan slp jor u will lei ma?
ofcoz wiil lo~work le~
2moro u 1morning wakup a~then u nw go slp la~gud night~muackzzzz~
thx mui..ok..u too..tomorow got skul..slp early ya..makss
11/02/09
2 day oso 1 add oil o~mizz~muack~
hahas..thx mui alot ya..thx u are support me..u also ya..study hard..
haiz~u sure~u no scare me fan o~
won la..u won distueb me la
oo~icici
hahas..wont la..i jus late reply u only de..
wont la..mui think too much le
haiz..i ofcos will think so much lo~cos not all pll lik u that t~
like how?
erm~i dono how 2 say le~u when fang gong
i bak home le..got miss me mar..hahas
haha~i hv miss u a~n pn lim say she oso miz u~
hahas..reli mar?when she say de?
erm~yestersay lo~so night no slp a~
12/02/09
peiseh ya..last nite fall slp le..didt reply.hahas
gor~i so cham a~i slp late jor~no go skul a~
yea yea..why today slp late de
coz i slp late jor
Oicic..next time slp early la..no go skul tolak mark de le
i noe~coz slp late~
y slp late le.
~yesterday hv many thing do lo~hv many class t thing~haiz~n hlp my mun do house work
then next time erly slp lo~
this i noe~y call me do ketua agin wo~class t thing all gv me do~
Coz u clever and best is done thing la..them trust u in work mar..so choose u as monitor lu
thank u zan me lo~but i not clever la~pmr oso dont hv a~every time teacher ask all ketua pmr rus how~oli me hv fail~then all smile me t
yea mie?but now u r monitor le..better thn them la
haiz..i dint 1 say t sad thing jor!say about u~y u 2day look lik so free t?
hahas..no la..now morning mar..less costermer de
then can sms me la~oso sms wif other ppl la~
也许我不是最关心你的妹妹，
或许我还不够了解你，但，无论你孤单，伤心，想哭，想笑时。。我都会一直在这里默默的守候你，从做你妹妹那天起，永不变~
08/02/09
hahas..so touching ar
moring~gor~ofcos is me type t ma
hahas..okok..yesterday i fal slp le..
haha~yesterday i oso slp jor~the massage is 2day send 2 u t~wad gor doing
jus eat le finish norh..thn later go jusco buy thing wif family..hahas
so gud lo~i hv atviti cant go out 2 ply a..T.T
today wor?today got activity at home t mie?
cos i hv bersatuan lo~
Oicic..thn u busy mar?
sori ya~late reply ~just nw i hv band~no la~at my church da~is that 1 boys briged is malaysia~hv many company t~
Oicici..thn free ady ar?
no la~then band end jor
ya lo~then u le~no shopping nw o~
hahas..yea yea
ya lo ~oso free chat wif me a~
hahas..wont la..okok norh..jus pui family lor
wif family go out will sien ma?
Hahas..no la..i got time free thn pui family lor..hahas
thas gud lo~i 1 pui my family oso cant~
why de?
i baba no wt at home~
hahas..seldom bak home izzit?
yaya~u shop end jor ma?
bak home jor lu..now on9..hahas
haiz~then no time chat wif me jor lo~
no la..only late reply..hahas
u off jor ma~
i jus off de lo..u got on mie
no o~my sis use compurter~u gor is use 016 or 014 ?
both also got..but 016 no use ady le
ya o..cos he just nw use 014 d find me..n i hv 2 gor oso call daric..
yea mie?tis name is made by my bro de wor..
dono o.then name same same t..u eat jor dinne ma?
haven o..hahas very hungry now
u mami no cook o...
hv ar~but go ppl house eat..
so cute t..u mun hv cook..but go ppl home eat???:s/..
yea la..coz fren's baby 1 month birthday mar..hahas
o~icici,hehe,2day so hapi can wif u sms lo~
hahas,why so hapi?
cos u sms me lo^^
Oicic..hahas is ok de?
hehe~i think no need send abut love t massege 2 me la~me will sad t le~
hun?why de?
cos me dont hv bf lo~c t massage i will sad t~
Oicic..dun think too much la..XD
haiz..me lik jor 1 boy 3 year a~is 3 year a~haiz
thn the boy dun like u mar?
i dono hw he think~
Oicic..form wat de?
same wif me t~
Oiic..very leng zai de ar
leng zaidono o~some ppl say he leng zai~some ppl say he not
Hahas..u show me see leng zai or not
(picta)leng zai ma?
okok norh..hahas not bad la..gambateh a mui
but gor more leng zai...haha..i think wif he do best fren bete do bf gf
hahas..where got leng zai..ge more leng zai la..XD but u gambateh la..if reli cant u try to giv up ok,?dun make ur self sam fu
hehe..i nw gv out le lo~then he tell he mui say i no lik him anymore jor~n say no ppl aways tk care him,chat xin shi wif he..hen bu xi guan..
but u hv to jian qiang la know?dun think too much and hurt ur selr..try to be hapi
erm..i look lik sad o??ya..he b4 is so hurt me..but nw..i dont care he how 2 think me,i very hapi..cos i noe nw i hv many ppl care t~just lik u..so i nw no need bcoz he sad n cry..tq u gor
09/02/09
sore ya..yesterday nite fal slp ady..hahas..sms me when u wakeup o:-)
wa~wake up so erly a~nw working a?
hahas..jus now meeting now ok le lu..rest alwhile
haha~then hai xi guan t work ma?
ok lo..b4 got work mor..but 1 week only la
y do 1 week oli t~
tis is fair lai de..so jus work 1week only..
oicic..u wt time eat arternon
now rest alwhile lo..thn afternoon rest again lu.
waa~hv so many rest time ya~this work no bad o.~haha~me so cham lo~go out sing k~but no mic gv me sing~
Got sing k stil cham ar?hahas me more cham lo
go there sit oli~gv my gor n mui chong jor~y cham le?
hahas..u didit say also..u cal them giv u mar..
haiz~shuan le ba~all is them say~them no gv me d la~
thn why u go?didt sing also..them bully u de..
ya la~who call them xiong that me
hahas..u should xiong thn them mar..thn so small..hahas
haha~nvmy la~nw them go out tk thing eat..nw i can sing~hapi
hahas..today hapi ar?
some some hapi lo~u le ?
work where got hapi de la..Hahas
haha~hapi then gud lo~u gor on9 nw le~
hahas..he so free de la..no nie work also de..
y he no work t
coz he tomorow jus work lu
0~do same work a~
yea yea..jus now ask ady lu..my bro can work here hahas
haha~then u hapi lo~hv ppl pui u~
hahas..ok..ok la ..hahas
erm.okok..hahas thx u anywhere
gor，nw i no hapi?
why ar?wt appen
my mun be4 say 2moro say 1 facht me go out t,then just nw she fen call my mun facht her nu er go out..the time is same wif me 1 go out t..then she ask me find ppl facth o~coz she 1 facth her fren nu er go out..then 1 very engry n go back 2 room cry,,then she come 2 my room ma me lo~she say her t nu er inpoten that me..
10/02/09
gor~morning a~2 day work must add oil a~n always smile ~add oil~muack..^^
hahas..thx alot ya..u also gambateh aya..jayou!hahas
hahas..now i break jor lu
i bak home liao lur
gor..sori a~just nw i m slping~so no reply u a~u nw eat jor dinner ma~
no la..jus wan slp jor u will lei ma?
ofcoz wiil lo~work le~
2moro u 1morning wakup a~then u nw go slp la~gud night~muackzzzz~
thx mui..ok..u too..tomorow got skul..slp early ya..makss
11/02/09
2 day oso 1 add oil o~mizz~muack~
hahas..thx mui alot ya..thx u are support me..u also ya..study hard..
haiz~u sure~u no scare me fan o~
won la..u won distueb me la
oo~icici
hahas..wont la..i jus late reply u only de..
wont la..mui think too much le
haiz..i ofcos will think so much lo~cos not all pll lik u that t~
like how?
erm~i dono how 2 say le~u when fang gong
i bak home le..got miss me mar..hahas
haha~i hv miss u a~n pn lim say she oso miz u~
hahas..reli mar?when she say de?
erm~yestersay lo~so night no slp a~
12/02/09
peiseh ya..last nite fall slp le..didt reply.hahas
gor~i so cham a~i slp late jor~no go skul a~
yea yea..why today slp late de
coz i slp late jor
Oicic..next time slp early la..no go skul tolak mark de le
i noe~coz slp late~
y slp late le.
~yesterday hv many thing do lo~hv many class t thing~haiz~n hlp my mun do house work
then next time erly slp lo~
this i noe~y call me do ketua agin wo~class t thing all gv me do~
Coz u clever and best is done thing la..them trust u in work mar..so choose u as monitor lu
thank u zan me lo~but i not clever la~pmr oso dont hv a~every time teacher ask all ketua pmr rus how~oli me hv fail~then all smile me t
yea mie?but now u r monitor le..better thn them la
haiz..i dint 1 say t sad thing jor!say about u~y u 2day look lik so free t?
hahas..no la..now morning mar..less costermer de
then can sms me la~oso sms wif other ppl la~
2009年2月6日星期五
2009年1月19日星期一
已经开学了~
现在开学已经是2个礼拜一天，好累。。今年也当回了班长，今年作班长的压力还蛮大。。功课也蛮多的。。我好怕会跟不上。。。我也好久没有写了，我也不知道要写什么？真的。。不过最近和他发生了很多事。。我想把他占为己有，我不想与别人分享他，我害怕其他人会破坏我和他的感情，我真的很怕？我还是可以继续的信你吗？你会不会把我的秘密与别人分享？最近你和她特别好。。他那天跟我讲的话，你有听到吗？到底你们在讲些什么？为什么不能让我知道吗？是在说我吗？是你在哭吗？为什么不让我安慰你？你的心出现了很多的问号？一直在想，我跟本没有心情崇拜，我跑到2楼哭，你知道吗?你跟本不知道我的痛苦。。可能你们在3楼一起有说有笑。而我呢？一个人，很孤单。。他那天将的话就把我当成外人。什么都不告诉我。。之前说的没一句真，现在像是你们两个一起的，跟本就不把他当一回事？我真的很气。。我到底要怎么办？我知道你们在3 楼，但是我没有勇气上去找你们。我很怕你们会以“两个人谈比较好”的理由来赶我走。。拜6礼拜都是酱，我真的好想把我自己忙坏，不想让自己想那么多。。你想要和我讲的话到底是什么？是不是你已经全都告诉他了？？？？？？？？？？？？？？？？？？？？？？？？
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